Patience

This without a doubt is something I need to work on. Not patience with my children thankfully, but patience with things that are completely out of my control. It has been a week since making this decision and I'm already a bit disappointed that we have no referral. I was thinking that we would contact our agency and they would watch for a match and then we would work on the little paperwork we need. Instead I have spent the week on the phone with the China director and then filling out the application and coming up with our checklist. Our social worker is waiting to find out if she can do our home study. It certainly isn't a given that we will receive a match before June 21st, but there is a good chance. If we don't receive a referral and have immigration okay and a home study all ready to go should we forge ahead anyway? Or do we take that as a sign that we weren't supposed to pursue this? I wish I had an answer. You see, I'm a planner and if I see one more little girl in my future as I do now, how can I give that up? From what I see we have at least five more lists for my agency to watch and I hope and pray that Abigail Faith / Abigail Joy is on one of them. Yes, we have chosen a name - or actually gone back to the first name we chose when waiting for Isabella. The older kids don't like it, but then it isn't for them to decide!